For The Love of the Game: Audition Perspective, Disappointments, and Intrinsic Motivation
Alright, so you’ve been putting in the work in developing your craft. You’ve done all the exercises and warmups, improved your technique through hours and hours of intentional and tedious practice, and may have even been training in other related fields such as acting or dancing, and your progress is visible and encouraging. You’re doing all the ‘right things’ to get better, to get the lead or prove to yourself and others that you’re a skilled performer. And the opportunity finally comes- the audition for your favorite show with the possibility of landing your dream role. You have a successful audition, are proud of yourself and you anxiously await the release of the cast list….
Ensemble? Or better yet, not cast at all? You’re a little stumped and disappointed by these results, and that is normal. After all, you, your teachers, and supporters have seen your progress. You aren’t untalented, you don’t lack the skill, you have the stage presence. Maybe you even know and have worked with the casting directors before, making this feeling of rejection all the more personal. And while all of these feelings are natural and valid, I’d like to offer some perspective on the other side of the audition process and give you some points to consider.
It’s very easy, especially at the beginning of your performing experience to think “best performer” = lead role, “ok performer” = ensemble, and “not a good performer” = “not cast at all”. After all, a lot of other facets of our lives have clearly defined tiers, winners and losers and direct, objective feedback on how well we’re doing something (grades, sports, interviewing for a job, etc.). Most of us have a meritocratic view of the world because of this, meaning the best get rewarded for the better they do.
And while it might seem unfair or personal, auditions in an arts space don’t follow these rules. The directors’ creativity and vision plays as big a part as your skill level in determining casting. You could be the sweetest peach in the orchard, but the directors are looking to make an apple pie. You don’t have to do anything “wrong” to not be chosen for something. In many cases, a lot of things are completely out of your hands, such as how you slot together with your fellow auditionees. What good does it do if you could absolutely nail the big sister role if none of the boys auditioning would work as your little brother? I implore you to view each audition that comes your way as an opportunity, and if it doesn’t work, being able to move on to the next without it becoming a statement of your abilities. Bouncing back from rejection is half the game here. Rejection is not only inevitable in this space, but abundant, and it’s not an affirmation of your skill or worthiness.
Instead, turn your attention towards your intrinsic motivation and things you can control. It’s normal to want validation or reward for your hard work, but seek that affirmation from within. Sing, dance, act, not solely for being able to do it well and receive praise or reward, but because you love to do it and you can’t imagine your life without doing it. Build discipline when it comes to developing your skills, and enjoy your progress and way to express yourself. Nothing that is meant for you will ever miss you!
